Supernatural - Dean Winchester: PUDDING (by SarahLuvJensen)
The hardest part of saying NO to someone that is in love with you is, ones own selfishness.
For several month I am dating this guy, who is so in love with me. ( He has been in love with me for about 2 years, and I knew that) He is super nice, truly funny, very knowledgeable and most of all, does everything to make me feel good. All he wants is a chance to be with me.
When we go out, I enjoy being with him. I do!
He is never boring, never crosses the line that I did draw, offers his help and promises safety.
But this weekend I will have to tell him, that his dreams of kissing me will never come true. Yes, we never kissed.
All my friends tell me to give him a chance, everyone is impressed with him. Everyone likes him and encourages me to at least kiss him once and see what happens.
I know he would do everything to keep me happy and to be wonderful to and with my son.
My selfish needs to share me live and body with someone, have stood in my way to stop this “relationship” from the get go. I don’t like to sleep alone. Who does? I love to go out and be admired by him, feel his pride to be seen with me. His pride to pay for a night out, his pride to walk me to my car.
I can’t, I don’t love him.
I like him, but that is it. I tried to see him as more than he is. I tried to fall in love with him. But the saying - the heart wants what the heart wants - is so true.
My head tells me, that he would be wonderful, that my life would be great with him, my heart knows … I love someone else.
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